Why, all I want to know is why me!!!!!
You know, i know it isn’t just me and I know this probably happens more than we would liek to admit, but I swear sometimes I just feel like there sis omethign about me, some vibe I give off that makes people feel like they can jsut say whatever to me!!
So we are in New orleans living it up for my bday,a dn we are riding the trolley back to our hotel after a night of fun on Bourbon Street. So I ahev had 1 drink, that was all I needed, i am sooooo not a drinker so i was good. i only drank becuase it was my bday!!! And while we were on Bourbon this woman was begging for money and of course my baby being the sweatheart that he is gave her a few bucks!!!
Well when we get on the trolley she is on there and comes and sits next to us and starts talkign to me, asking where I am from and what not. No problem idle chit chat never killed anyone so fine. Then she is like “I can tell you like food” I was liek ummm excuse me so she repeated it. I was liek ummm not anymore than anyone else. And she was like then why are you so big! I jsut looked at her and was like what!!!!!!!! She was like “Well why are you so fat if you don’t eat a bunch of food all the time, I mean anyone can look at you and see how fat you are!” I was just like okay conversation over. I was jsut almost in shock. I actually was really proud of myself, i didn’t cry until we were back in our hotel room, but I jsut don’t understand. I have come really far, hell i wonder what she woudl ahev said to me had she seen me before I lost the hundred pounds. It jsut sucks. i don’t understand how people can think behavior like that is okay!!!! It is jsut liek the woman at the Bridal Expo last year who tole me sarastically “Yeah i would like to see you run!”
I jsut don’t understand why people are jsut really rude for no reason. So I am fat okay but does that make me non human. I don’t have any feelings, the fat just makes me invalid of being shown the comon courtesy we should get no matter what.
Of course kris was like baby you are not fat and this and that but he has on those love goggles!!! He was upset with me becuase he was liekw ho cares what some homeless woman thinks or says, but I ahve always kinda beleived in the honesty of strangers. He loves me so of course he no longer sees the rolls of fat!! I don’t knwo it was just hard to get that harsh reminder like that, that no matter how pretty or smart or educated or talented, to a complete stranger, i am still, after all this, still just another fat girl!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sorry, you guys should know by now when I am emotionally speaking (typing) I am a horrible typist!! sorry for all the typos!!!!!!!
You know, I saw your pictures you posted of your trip and what I immediately thought was how beautiful you are. I know the words of this woman hurt and I don’t know what to make you feel better but you are a beautiful woman. Your man loves you. You are doing something about your weight and health and it seems like you have been enjoying your journey so far. Please don’t let this idiot crazy person take away your charm.
I was gonna comment here, but I think Rebecca said it all. Chin up and remember how far you have come!
There are so many more of those type of people out there. I like to believe that there is good in everyone and some people are just to ignorant to know any better. But, thats just me making excuses for them. Unfortunatley that woman more than likely is off the wall so to speak. One thing we must always remember is to love ourselves, no matter who wants to say things to bring us down or try to stand in our way. Like Rebecca said, you are a beautiful woman not just OUTSIDE, but inside as well. Enjoy your life, and believe what your boyfriend tells you. ITS TRUE!
I am so sorry , but you know some homeless people are mentally ill and that’s why they are homeless. Why do people act as though they have a right to say such things to you? Because they are RUDE and uncaring. I had that happen to me so many times when I was 125 lbs. larger. “I want to talk to the BIG nurse” “it would take two of us to get our arms around her” from a couple of drunk men outside a bar. FORGET IT!!! Stay with your plan. Kris loves you for YOU and my husband was the same way. We are lucky women. Bless you, hugs, Marge
You know, it just aggravates me to NO END when I want to reply to a blog, and the blasted computer is telling me I have to be logged in, and I AMMMMMMMMMMM logged in.
K, now that I’ve had my little fit, I just want you to know that you have every right to be hurt and angry. And you know what, it would be so easy for you to look at that woman and say something like “I can see you have no education because you are CLEARLY a beggar poor woman on the streets and can’t get a job”… but you didn’t. And you know why? Because you, Toni, are not like that. You are not callous and vindictive and the type to strike back in a mean way, just to have the last say. And THAT, my dear Toni, is what makes you the wonderful person that your fiance and family and friends love. THEY know what’s in your heart and they judge you by that, as does MOST of humankind. Yes, there are mean ugly evil people out there that will treat you such as you were treated. 9 times out of 10, they have never been taught any better. We must dig deep in our hearts and forgive them. That’s the only way to get past it.
Big huggggggggggs and now i gotta go check out your bunny pics!
Shan
Thanks you guys, you are all the best!!!
Aaaawwwwm this is breaking my heart. I’ve read manyof your jokes Toni and always find your sense of humor so funny. You’ve made so many of my darker days much brighter with your jokes and the beautiful picuture of you on Buddyslim. Your smile shows what a wonderful person you are inside and out.
People are so cruel and have no idea how much they can hurt people by there words. Shanna and marge said it all….she was homeless and mentally ill. Anyone who knew the “real” you would only see the real “Beauty” you possess!!
You are also blessesd by your fiance, my husband sees me for the “person inside” He says each streth mark I have is beautiful and it shows battle scars from motherhood…LOL!!! We are lucky to have men who appreciate the REAL WOMEN that we are!!! Bless you today and always
Oh honey, you have to know there are just cruel people in the world. People who beat dogs, abuse kids, torture, kill, mutilate….who knows why. It must be something missing in their mental processes that makes them completely unable to feel compassion for those they hurt. It’s just too bad nice people like you are hurt. I know that nothing anyone says makes that deep-down hurt go away. I wish I could fix it.
oh, No one deserve that. I am so sorry that you had to hear that or even deal with it and of all days your birthday. Well I know you for you and you are an amazing person that deserves the best. I am glad Kris was there to comfort you and calm you down. (yep definetly a keeper.) You are a beautiful person and don’t forget that.
That was abusive. She said it to hurt. That’s what cowards and bullies do. Some people try to elevate themselves by putting others down. Her opinion is worthless. You are priceless. Hold your head high…the people that count know your worth.
OMG!! I’m sorry! I really am! For whatever is worth, I saw your pictures (lovely by the way) and I wanted to tell you how beautiful you look and what great progress you’ve made! You are truly an inspiration. BTW, happy birthday!
Oh now you know I should’ve been there for both of those !@#$%^* I would have told beggin betty to give me my darn money back and the wedding lady she would have run after i had kicked my foot so far @##$$$ oooh forgive me but that just pisses me off people so being rude and hi five to you for not saying anything but girl it’s 2008 and I’m not going to do what I did in 2007 it’s on now…maybe i’ve gotten stronger now but to hell with people disrespecting me and treating me any kind of way…great job but I would have told both those pieces of you know what where to go especially beggin betty some nerve she has to say that and she has no where to live!
You go Angela!!!
Toni, I understand how you must have felt. And I’m so sorry for you having to hear such rude and disrespectful comments. That is totally uncalled for!! I had someone say to me the other day that I was pregnant………sometimes I wish I wasn’t soo nice and would have had a quick smart come back. But I was too shocked and hurt at the time, and I was just trying to compose myself, as I’m sure you were as well.
I see all your photos and you are extremely beautiful. And now I can see how much class you have as well, and you should always demand respect.
Here we are trying to change ourselves for the better, and still those judgemental rude a**holes will remain the same. Those kind of people will find fault in everyone, no matter how thin, fat, pretty, unattractive, short, tall or whatever…..they are just so insecure with themselves.
You are going to have an amazing wedding and marriage!