Relationships!!
So Angela had posted a blog this morning about her husband gettign ready to leave for Houston without her and how much she was going to miss him and it really made me thing about our relationships, well actually more about mine! (Yeah yeah I know the whole world revolves around me!! ha ha!!!)
I have (or I guess I should say now have been!!) always been really independent but not so much since Kris! he has totally changed me and I start to wonder is it all positive. I mena don’t get me wrong I have always wanted a man who truely understands me and accepts me as I am, and that is definitly what I ahve, btu when does that kind of unconditional love become not in your best interest? I knwo I will probably get tons of hate email about how spoiled I am and how I should jsut appreciate what I ahve and trust me I do. NOBODY knows more than me how lucky I am to have such a wonderfully loving man, but he is just liek you are perfect baby!! Always tells me everyday how great I look and even when I first started loosing the weight he was always like,w ell I love you NOW and however you are, and youa re the most beautiful woman int he world…yada yada yada! I am not complaining what woman does not love compliments, but I just feel like I don’t know, liek i don’t ahve any pressure to better myself! I knwo that is horrible for me to say, and i am lucky that I have the kind of man who will let me blame him for my own lack of motivation of late, but it jsut flat out comes down to the fact that he has really MADE ME LOVE ME!!! And I didn’t for sooooo long!! he has made me accept myself as i am, and I knwo it sounds bad, but alot of my motivation was based in my hatred and unhappiness with myself! Now that that is gone, i feel like I have kinda lost my drive. Let me tell you, there is nothing like being uncomfortable in your own skin to get you motivated and up off your butt!!! Kris is big on, “if you don’t liek it change it, or shut up about it!!” And I have kinda taken on that mantra as well, but i really do just LOVE myself!! flab and all. And I am proud of that, btu it also makes me feel sad, becuase there is still more improvement I have to make!!
Okay, so enought of me whinning!! i guess with the Rheumetoid Arthritis and the mouth surgery and everythign else that has been going on, I jsut feel liek my weight loss has fallen to the back burner and I need to write this blog. i need to put it out there that I was off track, in order to get myself back on track, becuase even now as i write this it is like come on girl. You ahve a man who loves you as you are, and you think that could in some way be negative!! I am saying it to myself!! GIRL GET A GRIP!!!! Thanks for letting me vent and I am sure all your comments (and PLEASE DO COMMENT!!!) will give me the push I need t0 make the most of this next month and 1/2 (OH YEAH!!! I AM GETTIGN MY DRESS FINALLY ORDERED SO AFTER THAT IT IS ALL ABOUT MAINTAINING, NOT LOOSING BECUSE I CAN’T HAVE THE FIASCO I JUST HAD, HAVING TO CHANGE MY DRESS BECAUSE I COULDN’T FILL TI OUT LIKE I DID BEFORE!!!).
So wish me luck!!! My goal is 30 pounds!!!!! Hold me to it!!!! THANKS BUDDIES!!!
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Wow I was jsut re-reading this,a nd they really need to get the spell checker fixed on this, becuase mine spellign his horrible!! Actually it is not the spelling, it is jsut when I am thinking and typing I just get so caught up in it, that I just don’t make sure I am typing everything correctly!!! Sorry guys!!!!!!
I knew you were really caught up in what you were saying because of the spelling, I do the same thing. It’s like when you talk too fast because you’re really excited about something and your ‘tongue trips over your teeth’. lol My husband is my best friend, too and even though he loves me whatever my current size he will tell me how much better I look now, if I ask, and always with love. (sigh) s.
You are doing this for YOU!! My husband was the fine with my great weight gain, but I was soooo miserable. I was 130 when we married and after the death of our daughter I weighed 265. But he understood I was using the food to comfort myself and endure her long illness. But he was very happy when I became a healthier, happier me. DO THIS FOR YOURSELF! He will love you any way you are. Love, Marge
You can do this. YOu love yourself and that is great. But think about being a healthier you, so you can keep loving that self. Keep pushing forward and I hope you find that motivation you are looking for.
It’s so exciting to finally order your wedding dress.
You can do it Angela. We don’t have to be shamed into weight loss or feel inferior to get ourselves better. Do it out of love for yourself.
Sure, you love yourself, and you should! You’re an awesome person!
But how much more love and respect will you have for yourself (and in turn, everyone else will have for you) when you overcome this goal! Working hard and achieving a goal - a tough one like weight loss - is so rewarding! You’ll be on top of the world!
There is nothing wrong with loving yourself on the way. Your weight does not account for who you are and there are plenty of other great reasons to appreciate who you are. But as in anything, when we work hard and do our best to achieve big goals - wow, what a feeling!
You should always love yourself no matter what your size. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Let being a healthier person be your driving force. You have done such a fantastic job so far, and I know you will continue to do so.
My husband is the same way. No matter what I look like he loves me. Sometimes I have wondered if he wasn’t so accepting would I have gained so much weight over the years. But it all comes down to me and what I need and want. I can’t give him all that he deserves beacuse of my weight. My weight affects every area of my life. I want to be a better wife to him and I can only do that if I am totally happy with myself. You defintely are not misunderstood. There are plenty of us that feel the same way. You deserve that kind of love.
Awesome on the self love! And how awesome you have such a wonderful, loving man! I know that from being sick myself, it is hard to stay pumped up, you just gotta force yourself to get back in the game, and the motivation will come. Hugs,Kama
Girl you know my husband loves women with meat and plenty of meat on their bodies lol but I just decided I wanted to feel good for myself. And seeing the changes is definitely a plus! You have a right to your feelings and there is absolutely nothing wrong with the way you feel; it is hard when you need that push and they love you the way you are. Remember the biggest loser contest my husband said quit you dont need that but what he didnt understand it wasn’t about the contest is was about me feeling good about myself…all that being said you feel good in your own skin fine but do what makes you feel better you want to lose the 30lbs then guess what? That you shall do whatever you put your mind to do; that shall be done! Remember regardless of what others say or how they feel “OUR” feelings is what matters most. I know KRIS loves you (sorry for the capitalization lol) and I know you love you too (nothing wrong with that) and nothing wrong with making improvements - smile! That’s how I sum it all up making improvements to an already beautiful picture!!! So here I am to encourage and give you that PUSH you need; it’s going to be so much fun when I finally do get to TEXAS but hey I have almost 6 weeks vacation and time off…I’ll put in a couple of thurs and fridays and have some long weekends. We’ll get to workout and I’ll support and help you along the way! Either way you are going to be one of the most Beautiful brides ever! And 30 lbs I’m going to hold you on that!! You’re going to get tired of me bothering you lo lol lol lol lol lo