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Okay the whole blog problems are really starting to bug me. So i wrote a blog and now it is not on there, but when i hit my blogs it is there, so not that i am full of myself and think I have anything better to say than anyone else, if you are reading my blogs, please actually go to my profile then hit read my blogs, cuz for some reason thatis the only place they are showing up, form what i ahev seena nd what I am being told thru messages. Thanks

read previous blogs if you are lost in my response.

I just wanted to be clear that I am not knocking gastric bypass. I think it is a great opportunity for alot of people, I was just moved by the show and needed to respond. I jsut think ti is very serious so it needs to be taken seriously.

Everyone please read my previous blog. I know it is long, btu it is heartfelt!! I really wanted to just show my appreciation for everyone on here!!

Okay, so here it is for the second time!!!!!!!!!!

Did anyone see that shoe Big Medicine? I couldn?t sleep last night so at 11:00pm I was flipping channels and I caught this show. It has been a really long time since I have watched a show that has sent me thru the emotional ringer like this show did. I feel the need to premise this blog by apologizing in advance if I offend anyone. I know we all have our issues and we all have our way of dealing with things, and different things work for some and not others, but I just had to comment??

Okay so the show is like one of those real life doctor shows and these doctors do bypass surgeries. I didn?t see it form the beginning but the three stories I saw were a black woman in her early 40s, a Hispanic woman in her mid 40s and a white male, who I didn?t catch his age, but he was married and had older children so I would think he was in his late 40s or around there.

So the black woman had had the surgery and she started at like 226 or something like that and had lost 94 pounds and was having cosmetic surgery, to flatten her stomach and a boob job. She had worked out but had excess skin and things like that. She was a success story and it was inspirational.

The second story I want to talk about was the white man. He was an inspiration also. The doctors like to put people on a diet before the surgery to show they can follow the plan to have the surgery be a success and kinda like a good faith effort. He did well!! He started out at like over 400 pounds, and before even the surgery he lost over 100 pounds. He had the surgery and I think he lost like 100 more and he was also inspirational and a success story.

Okay so now to the Hispanic woman, who is my main reason for this blog. She was not a success, well at least not yet. She weighed over 400 pounds and wanted the surgery. So of course they do all the build up and they show her in her normal life, which I am sure was slanted some for TV but they showed her eating almost constantly, and then they showed her going thru the drive thru and ordering like 10 things just for herself. It was really sad to me. Then they showed the psych evaluation and her meeting with the therapist, and it was denial central. The therapist even met with the doctors and said she was not a good candidate for the surgery, to much depression and other issues and what not. Okay but they were still moving ahead, so they put her on the diet. Not only did she not loose, she gained a pound. Luckily her insurance refused to pay for the surgery so she ended up not getting it, and please don?t get me wrong, I didn?t not want her to loose the weight or be miserable, but my point is the surgery is very serious. VERY!! You have to be disciplined and it is hard, and yeah they can make your stomach 1 oz, but it is gonna stretch and grow like a normal stomach, and you can gain the weight back, not to mention being sick and all kinds of other problems. I feel the need to explain. My dad used to push me to have the surgery, so I did the research because at one point I considered it. People don?t realize YOU CAN GAIN THE WEIGHT BACK!! It is not an end all cure. My issue with the show was I felt like it was kinda making it look easy. I mean if you don?t deal with the issues and your eating habits, and what you are eating and why there can be serious bad effects, and gain the weight back and sometimes even more is one of them. I personally know of 3 cases, from people I know friends and family, and not only did they gain it back, they are now bigger than before they had the bypass. It just scared me that someone could be watching and think, I don?t like to diet, I don?t like working out, I should do this. Please don?t get me wrong, there are good candidates for this surgery, and for some it is what it will take and what is needed, but I just ? I just? I don?t know. I just felt so much emotion watching the show. Watching when she found out she couldn?t get the surgery, I felt like we all just saw her give up. I mean I have just come to believe you can?t put your hopes for success in anything but yourself. I mean I look at everyone on here. I look at Angela ( who is soooo strong and determined, and motivated and she is gonna get to her goal!!) and Maggie (who is as sweet as a slice of pie, who balances the needs of her family with her own needs to succeed.) and Josie ( if you don?t know her, seek her out!! She is an inspiration!! She has lost almost 100 pounds, another person, and she is soooo supportive and not only truly cares about making it to her goals, but helping anyone who tries to make it their goals also!!) and Pamela (last but definitely not least. She is the best person I know!! She is giving and caring. She is strong and determined. She HATES working out, but SHE DOES IT!! She doesn?t like to diet, but she does it. She is doing what it takes to reach her goals. She is my sister and she is the best part of me!!!). I look at all these people and I am just filled with a sense of pride that is over whelming. A feeling that I can make it because it isn?t I!! it is US and We. We are here and we all support eachother. The key to any good structure is the FOUNDATION, and I really feel like I am going to loose the weight and be successful because I am finally building on solid ground!!

Whew!! That was a mouthful, and the sad thing is, I have more, but another day another time. I wrote this in my journal at home and am retyping it here. I guess my whole point was I just wanted to tell you all I LOVE YOU GUYS!! YOU GUYS ARE MY HEROS!!!! Because you are doing it!!! YOU ARE!!!

I am sooo pissed!!!! Sorry for the language but I just spent like a half hour tyoping a blog only to hit submitt and have to log back in and of course it is gone, btu I am gonna take the time to type it all again, becuase I really what to get it out there!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really don’t know how to describe this weekend. I mean I guess it wasn’t bad bad, but it was wonderful. I know this is total TMI so sorry guys, but I have some female issues restricting my time of ther month, so I only get it like 2-3 times a year so when ti does come, it is BRUTAL!!! Okay not gonna get into all of that. So, I am in agony since Friday afternoon, (that is why there were no posts!!), but my baby (my boyfriend - no kids!!) was sooo awesome!! I really do have the best man, at least in my area, since I know, Pamela, Josie, Angela and Maggie all have the best men in their areas!!! . He was sooo sweet. So he though maybe going out and getting somethign to eat would make me feel better, which of course was the last thing I wanted to do right!! So we went to ” our spot” which is the Bennigan’s up the street where we always sit in the bar and play the trivia game and all the bartenders know us and stuff. Kris is a drinker, nto me. They always tease me cuz I sit at the bar with my water and extra lemon, but I am just as fun sober as the next fool is druck, so whatever. So we played a few rounds of the trivia game, and got somethign to eat ( I was half bad, not really but not the way I have been watching every little bite lately.) and I felt a little better. So then we went to Best Buy, he needed another controller for his playstation (yeah they don’t grow up, their toys just get more expensive!!) and he is always wanting me to play the thing, but I don’t want to play Madden or Mortal Combat or whatever. I love love love football, but I like to watch!! So anyway we find a tetris game and I am excited!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love tetris!!!!!!! So basically my weekend consisted of me on the couch miserable with pain, and completely in love with the man beside me taking his tetis wooping like a man!!!!!! He stayed with me all weekend, cuz he knew I was miserable. No studio, no meetings, no friends hanging out. Just us and it was great even though physically it was one of the worst weekends I have had in a while!!!!! I won’t get into all the sappy things he said to try and make me feel better and what not, but I just have to say, man I really do have a great man!!!!!!!!!!!

On the weight loss fron, since that is why we are here afterall!!!! I am not even gonna bother with weighing this week becuase I already know what it will say. Gain!! I usually retain about at least 5 pounds of water during the next 10 days, so I am not going to even upset myself by checking it. I am just hoping to be able to get some work outs in this week, and to total TMI but try workign out with a knife in your stomach and then come back and wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!

But all in all, I had a great weekend, becuase I got to spend some quality time with my man, who I have been missing lately, but oh yeah good news, the last lyrics were put down, so now just editing, and the cd should be done before summer ends!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOHOOO!!!!!!!

Okay so I finally got a side and front view before photo. i can’t wait until it is time for an after, cuz I look like I was runner up for playing Jabba in the Star Wars movies!!!!!!!! Sorry the quality of the picture is not that great, plus it is just a skirt and a tank top, which is not my best outfit anyday!!! But trust me I look better on a regular basis than this!!!!!!!!!!!! I know how to rock the size I am !!!!!!! Whatever that size may be at the time!!!!!!

Sorry guys, I was home with the stomach bug or soemthign yesterday. Didn’t have the energy to get my butt out of bed and get online or anything. No working out either!!!!!!!  Feeling a little better today but still not back up to 100% yet!!

So today is day one for me on the Curves 6-week solution. It is pretty much just like Weight Watchers, but kinda more strick. You have a meal plan, which you can make substitutions to fit your taste, btu my favorite part of it is we meet weekly. just once a week. I mean don’t get me wrong I love you guys on here, but I love actually getting to sit around and talk and share stories and support in person also!!!!!! It is just kinda like a re- jump start for your diet plan, to build up your metabolism. I have done it before and lost like 30 pounds in the 6-weeks, so I am excited!! of course I will keep you guys posted!!!!!!!!

Have a great week everyone!!!!!!!

So I had my official one month weigh in this morning at Curves and I made it!!!!!! I lost 4 pounds this week taking me to 20 pounds since joining!!!!!!!!!! i was extatic!!  I alos lost 29 inches ( 7 of which were from my waist!!!!!!!!!!) and 12.2 % of my body fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WOOOOOHHOOOOOOO

Thanks for all the support Angela, I knew I had to kick it up cuz I couldn’t bring myself to have to post to you that I didn’t make it, even though i know you would have still be super proud even if it was just one!!!!! Love ya babe!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Mags!!!!!!! hope things are good!!!

Miss ya josie!!! Love ya Pam!!!!!!!!!!!!